I just can't really recall much of what they said to me or what I said in return. It wasn't that I didn't care or was indifferent towards the matter. Perhaps it was nerves or the guzzled Red Bull and vodka handed to me by my almost brother-in-law moments before.
I do remember the feeling of hundreds of eyes burning into my skull as I considered the possibility that my fly was in fact, down. It wasn't. I remember reciting her name in my head over and over so as not to screw that part up. So of course, I couldn't remember my own name. I remember wondering what blunt object the Maid of Honor would choose to bludgeon to death the world's most incapable DJ. It was either public shame or an extension cord, I don't know. I was rushed off for six thousand more pictures.
It's the moment we walked down the dirt, pine-needled path together, arm-in-arm, that I do remember. Like it was yesterday. The sight of her groomed toes peeking out from wedge shoes. The contrast of white against the green and yellowing aspen leaves. The sweet smell of her hair, and the BBQ spread.
Somewhere during those first steps, and in countless ones since, the words of a great Doctor came to mind.
“You're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting,
So... get on your way!”
That mountain may include a secluded hot springs on your honeymoon in the pitch black of night, with no flashlight and naked strangers, but whatever. You put your faith in someone and keep going.
"You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?"
We moved to Minnesota in December - proof I'd follow her anywhere. Regardless of the physics of minus 32 degree weather.
"And when you're alone there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.”
Like the thought of having to be single and date again.
"So be sure when you step,
Step with care and great tact.
And remember that life's
A Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left."
Full-time jobs. Graduate schools. Two mortgages. Joint checking accounts. Joint phone chargers. A child. A dog. Date nights at the grocery store. Knowing someone else's favorite flavor and what goes in the dryer and what doesn't. Yeah, that's deft.
"And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)"
- Dr. Seuss, Oh, the place you'll go!
Thanks Dr. Seuss, for all the wise words and favorable odds.
And thank you, babe. I'm in love with you.